Beloved Kajsa..
I am writing these long overdue words to you directly from my heart to yours. I have been wanting to express how I feel for so long, but life always seems to get in the way. The mind keeps luring me into thinking and ruminating: foretelling the future and hopelessly thinking of ways to change the past.. Life is keeping me busy by changing and staying the same, all at the same time.
However, I keep coming back to you: This strong yet delicate, soft and disciplined, beautiful wild woman. I know that you sometimes feel utterly lost and confused. I know that you wonder what the fuck is actually going on down here on earth on this journey we call life. I know you are asking yourself and God why there has to be so much suffering, both within and without.. Often you feel like you dont really fit in or have a place, like nobody really understands or sees you for who you are and what you have to offer. Baby girl, I know.. Your journey is not one for the weak.
You feel like that because you are placed here on earth, in this moment in time, to create something new. Both within and without. You see, all change started within before it was reflected and projected outside in the worlds. It must be like this, it is one of the absolute laws of the universe. So keep going within, brave one. You have all the answers and keys that you seek.
You know, you are exactly where you need to be, right here and right now. Trust it, feel it, let it seep deep into your bones. Manifestation is an upward spiral; its often when you feel like you are the furthest away that you are the closest. Keep your faith. Your faith in a benevolent universe, in yourself, in life, in humanity, in love, in miracles..
Surrender and flow;
Pain is inevitable but suffering is optional.
Suffering can only live where this is resistance to the present moment dear wild woman.
Breath in…. and out….
Feel your body from the inside and notice how it stops the chattering of the mind. You are not your emotions nor your thoughts; you are the silence and space behind all things. The same power that created the universe lives inside of you. Know it, feel it, surrender to it, let it work through you and for you.
I promise you, nothing was done in vain and it will all make sense little by little. I love you with every fiber of my being dear one, and so does God. You are worthy of all your dreams and so much more. Just keep opening your heart in spite of everything, relax into the present moment and follow your joy and passions. You have all that it takes to create the outmost beautiful life for yourself and in the process making this world a better place for all. I believe in you, and so do the angels.
Wear your scars like the stripes of a tigress. Take pride in knowing that few have survived the many tests that you have been thru in this life. You are a true warrior of light and love. It is time to envelope yourself with all the compassion and love you so desperately been trying to give to everyone else. The right ones will find you and stay; Friends, lovers, opportunities, projects, animals and places alike..
Rest in the knowing that nothing that is truly meant for you will pass you by.
Oh and darling; you are a master piece because you are a piece of the master. Dont you ever forget it.
Maktub.
